When you have 2 choices, Love or Be loved, which one do you choose?
Gue rasa kebanyakan orang bakalan milih dicintai, right?
Tapi apa lo tega bikin orang yang sayang sama lo sakit karena lo sayang orang lain?
Now, I wanna tell my story. Sebenernya ini bagian dari sedikit curhat gue.
Just call him Blue and Mountain. They're older than me. Blue is a college student and Mountain is 12th grade. We're just "socmed friend". Okay, that's not important-_-
Gue deket sama dua-duanya. Ya like brother and sister kayak kebanyakan orang gitu. Awalnya, gue sama sekali emang bener-bener nganggep mereka kayak kakak gue. Blue sama Mountain juga sering curhat ke gue tentang banyak hal. Termasuk soal cewe.
Abis kenal sekitar 2-3 bulan, Blue sama Mountain udah berani nelfon gue. Tapi ya pake skype atau line gitu. I don't give my number to him haha. Yang sering nelfon itu Mountain. Mulai dia curhat ga jelas, nyanyi ga jelas, kadang dia galau sendiri gitu sambil nyanyi lagu melow. Kalo Blue, selama gue kenal baru 2 kali nelfon.
Emang sih, kalo yang sering chat gitu si Mountain, kalo Blue cuma kalo kebetulan kita sama-sama online skype.
Dan akhirnya, ketika udah 4 bulan kenal...
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Yeah. Bohong banget kalo cowo sama cewe cuma temen deket tanpa ada rasa.
Beberapa hari setelah ulang tahun gue, waktu gue sama Blue kebetulan online skype,
He told me that he loves me. I'm shocked. I don't know what should I do.
Honestly, I don't love him. I love someone else. (If you know who I mean)
I told him to move on, but he won't.
I told him to block my skype, but he don't do that until now.
I told him if in his college, there are so many beautiful girl and better than me, but he still want me.
And when I said I can't love him for the second time, he just said "Hopefully you do not feel what I feel, it's too hurt. Bye"
Okay, everything was finished. Me and Blue, we're like stranger with some memories.
But sometimes I need him. Gue butuh cerita ke dia. Gue kangen sama semua nasehat dia.
But if I keep relation with him, it can be he still love me although I'm not.
I made the decision, I have to accept the consequences.
I let someone who love me to go. I don't wanna hurt him anymore.
So, I hope he is happy with his life without me.
